Shifted

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I Really Should Treasure You..

sad

Its so hard not to think of him..
Its so bad that the day things happened was the first day of the countdown of not being able to see him..
I totally changed..
I dont smile that much..
I am not happy
I feel so alone when i face hard facts..
When i wanna look for him i am scared that he is busy in camp..
I really miss him…
But i should be grateful that it is only 3 weeks..
I cannot imagine myself going through it if my boy was a NS man for 2 years..
Its half way through the second week..
So.. ya.. soon..

We spoke on the phone today..
he could so tell i sounded not right in the very first place..
i told him nothing..
but he knew there was something..
i told him it was all abt the schooling and the money thing.. nothing new..
I really appreciate the things that he did..
he wanted me to sms him when i am vex..
i cried becos he was so concerned..
that kept him from hanging up the phone..
cos at first he said he wanted to slp already..
but upon hearing me cry he kept himself awake to just talk to me..
i really really appreciate it..
and.. i really miss you..

every now and then i had been thinking if i could just die and escape the fact of me being the only child and doing whatever things that i dont wanna do..
but i thought of Terry.. thought of my friends.. I feel so selfish.. but i dunno how much more i can take..
i am going crazy soon…

Through the ups and downs..

Cleaning day~
i love having my own room cos i can do whatever i wan to it.. hee..
my mum is so cute..
she happily took a new bedsheet into my room and said she bought a print that i like..
she pointed to my to-fu figurine..
LOL.. then i amazingly thought to-fu got bedsheet.. LOL!!
when i opened up..  it was spongebob.. LOL!!!!!
then she looked so puzzled cos she tot she bought the right cartoon.. hahaha..
but nvm.. love the bedsheet still!

Spongebob bedsheet~~

and then dump all my ling ling long long onto my bed~~

cosy cosy~~

I did something to the other side of my door!!
pasted alot of things on it.. hahaha!!
now i get privacy~~
i was cleaning my room and i wanted to throw my magazines away..
but i tot that it was such a waste..
so i started looking for celebrities that i like from the mags.. HAHA!!

Magazines treasure hunt!

AND TAH DAH~~~~~~

My Door!!

my door!

ashin -- happy.BIRTH.day

evan yo -- ashin!!

westlife!

evan yo-- bang bang tang-- tank

Had a big big quarrel with my dad yesterday..
wat a happy new year..
he totally ruin the relationship with me and him
he chose to do it that way

if not for the fact that he threatened to put my life in danger..
i wun compromise him to take up that course that cost 52K..
dang..
i should make this the last time i do it his way..
terry asked me wat if he really force me to marry someone i dun like..
i cannot be sure if that would happen or not..
cos he did it before once..
and i dunno if that will ever happen..
but i wun let him do it his way..

put it this way.. if killing someone is not a crime, he’s dead.. and i’ll be the one who killed him..

been crying almost the whole day yesterday..
cab to shop to look for peggy and nicole..
they adviced me alot..
then after 5pm.. they both got their own reunion dinner to go to..
so i went to clark quay and sat there alone..
waiting for terry..
he’s really nice cos his dad juz flew back from HK and he chose to accompany me..
i noe im wrong by wanting his accompany
but i really needed him at that point of time..
he said he tot of 3 ways to the matter..
1- kill my dad.. (of cos not.. cos we will get jailed or sentenced to death..)
2- both of us jump into the river.. commit suicide..
(i dun wan.. cos non of his business.. he shldnt jump.. but he said if i die then he also wanna die.. Q_Q)
3- compromise to my dad’s decision of studying the course, then in future we both work to pay back the loan together..
(Q_Q he wanna work hard with me.. even though im the one who loaned it..)

i kept telling him that i may not be able to give him a good future..
or even make his life more difficult..
there are still alot of gals out there maybe way better than me..
i wan him to think carefully that this isnt a play..
but he juz sounded so serious and so firm that he wont regret..
gosh.. in my heart is like.. thank god for making terry my bf..
his words were so comforting that i totally feel 3/4 of my heavy load juz disappeared..
another 1/4 cos i really feel so bad for not being able to give him a good future.. ARH!!

Clark Quay

The night before,  Terry brought me to fort canning park..
he said he had never been there.. (so am i.. lol..) so we went..
was at night cos that was after i knocked off from work..
we climbed so many flocks of stairs.. when we were up there, there were like SOOOO MANY STARS!!!
really nice night view..
and we found a little house in the park..
terry was taking picture.. so i also monkey see monkey do! hehehe..

A small house in fort canning park

Then i discovered that i could make this picture… HAHAHA!!

Holy water!!

went to esplanade alone some time ago..
cos i needa drag time before i go home.. haha..
nice feeling of juz sitting by the river and watch the river, the IR.. and listen to ipod..

tunnel

esplanade

river

cloud~~

TERRY IS SICK!!

Silly Terry fallen ill..
he got flu.. he looked weak..
i dunno how to help but i seriously feel like helping..
he’s too stressed out..
too tired..
he is always accompanying me no matter how tired he was..
and he ended up getting sick..
ouch..

He told me he couldnt meet me today cos he needa meet another fren cos of important things..
and he was really sick that i was so worried..
but he came today.. with valentine’s present..
Odm watch that i really like..
why on earth would someone do that when he already feel like knocking out..
stupid iluma air con so cold he still go buy watch..
Q_Q
he told me he wanted to get the watch for me for very long le..
he knew i like the white one..
but no more stock..
he notices i wear black most of the time so he got me the black one..
i like the black one too cos its worn by my favourite character in 3anguo..
initially we wanted to meet on sat to celeb valentines early..
but he scared he dont have the strength to do that so he die die also wanna come out today..
he said he wanted to do more stuff de.. but he couldnt..
i understand cos he look really weak..
i couldnt ask for more.. he already did alot for me..
ARGH!! WHY GOT SO NICE DE GUY ON EARTH!!!
(though im really glad i got him..)

that’s the watch he bought..
i wore it immediately after he went home from shop..

and this is my favourite 孫尚香 wearing the watch!!

gosh.. i really like the watch alot lotsss..
and can make terry get well soon?
aww.. damn it..

its been tough time for me now.. this period.. cos of uni and parents stuff..
i actually brought the tokidoki poster home for a few days and din have the motivation to stick it..
and the constant bothering of my parents make me so hot that the next moment my mum step out of the room, i pasted it to block my door..
and tah dah..
i hate my glass door that doesnt give me privacy at all..
now that i have one side with poster, i needa do something to the other door.. lol..

The beginning of a new chapter

This could be the most wordy post i had ever posted..

Ever since the last time i blogged, a lot of changes took place..
Good and bad..
Good cos i finally had been good to myself..
Bad cos i had been a bad person by hurting somebody else.. badly probably..

I broke up with my ex boyfriend whom i had been with more than 2 years..
Along these few years, i cant deny that there are times that i felt happy..
But apart from the happy times, i felt depressed and suffocated more than i feel the happiness..
something must be wrong somewhere.. i knew but i had never spoken..
I know communication is the most essential thing to maintain a relationship..
But it depends on situations.. like is it possible to communicate?
towards the last few months, i had been warning myself.. i dunno when my breaking point will be..
the more things happened, the more irritated i got..
i knew i couldn’t be bothered at a point of time.. thats when i know things had to happen..
it hurts when someone said u dont belong there anymore..
it hurts when u are tired but someone din noe..
it’s disheartening when u already tried giving in yet nothing u got in return..
all these.. had to stop.. i couldnt do it anymore..

Its when Peggy said it’s been a long time since she last saw me chatting happily with guys..
made me really wonder.. is it true?
Even my mum said.. i should go out and noe more guys at my age..
Its when Terry told me he wanna call 999 to look for wanjun cos she’s gone..
made me realised, ya.. why am i forcing myself?
It’s when Nicole told me she felt Terry actually likes me but he just din noe..

When i was still with my ex, i told myself.. no way am i gonna give a damn to other guys..
it was easy when things juz started out..
But when things weren’t working out, i started to stray..
Even though how suffocated i felt, it was goddam hard for me to let go..
cos im afraid there’s no one there to catch me when i fall..
i told Peggy this before.. when she tried persuading me..

Things started to take place when Terry had been so nice to me..
i was really touched by the fact that when i told him i got a feeling to eat cereal prawn, and the next thing is, he bought the prawn delivered it to me..
Its like.. so nice of him to had done that..
Then he had been accompanying me for several nights for dinner..
talking to me tru msn when i really felt like i was confined at home..
i dunno starting from when, when i have something to share, the first person that came to my mind is terry..
but it was so wrong to have thought about that.. cos i had a boyfriend back then, and i still thought Terry likes Nicole..
I dunno why when Terry asked me to wait for him for dinner when i was at Far East, and i did waited for him..
but i knew i had to go home early and game.. i felt so sorry to have given him empty promises..
He sounded sad.. and i felt bad too..
Until when that morning.. that breakfast.. i knew how i felt..
That morning he gave me a shock when i saw him downstairs.. and i knew he din have enough slp..
and i really think that is more than wat a fren can do..

Judgement day.. Terry stayed with me the whole time..
heard and saw me cry..
accompanied me..
Told me so much on the bus trip to work..

I knew i hurt someone badly..
sent him to total blackness.. where he had no one to walk him tru it..
i really felt like a total devil when i said those things..
But i had to.. i know.. i cant continue anymore..

i dont wanna make Terry wait..
He’s been very nice and patient towards the decision that i had to take and he din mind at all..
I juz dont like it when i put myself in his shoes..

Now that i am with Terry, i never knew love can be so easy.. so natural..
When he held my hand, i really feel it.. He is really holding on to my hand..
makes me feel secure..
He sense things so easily that he can noe immediately when i am feeling sad..
he would make me laugh..
i wish i could make him laugh when he felt sad..
but when i saw him sad, nothing appeared in my mind no matter how hard i tell myself to think of things to say..
as compared to him.. he is so good as a boyfriend and i am still learning how to be a good girlfriend..
He said i gave him a kind of feeling that he really has a girlfriend..
but he did it way better than me..
he was there everytime i am on night shift..
accompanying me..
he really make me felt the presence of my boyfriend..
actually wat a normal gal would wan is to have someone who is always out there for u.. i guess..
at least u noe that u have someone to count on.. the kind of 安全感..

Its good to noe that the friends around me are happy for me..
and i hope we will be able to maintain this relationship for as long as we can.. =)

=D

PS: I had finally blogged.. yes.. and damn it.. i lost my samsung f480.. but i ended up with a new iphone.. LOL!

Its been like months i din blog..
always wanted to blog but i got no initiative to even type wordpress on the address tab.. LOL
but now that i did, i might as well “merlion” (vomit) out watever that i had been wanting to write about..
recently am reading a book.. The Time Traveller’s Wife.. I know there’s a movie..
i din watch it.. and i guess somehow will be better than the movie.. lol..
and i quite like it.. almost halfway tru the book already.. haven come to any touching part..
although nicole tell me she cry like hell watching the movie..
and yun tell me she waste the money to just see the guy’s butt.. LOL!!

Interesting!!
just last night i joined a group of people in WoW to attack the 4 major leaders of the alliance town..
to get ourselves a new mount!
This pic was taken before we enter the first town..
when all of us still using different mounts..

before the raid!

but after we finish hitting!!!
LOOK!!!!

look at our mounts!!

LOL!!! i so like my new mount..

 

Anyways..
i recently bought a tights that i quite like..
although a lot of people have their weird comments abt it..
but i heck.. LOL
had always been commented by people if i were to wear something out of the range wat normal apparels are..
so i already had been numb to it..
I LOVE IT!!

my tights

cuz the KO 3anguo got a girl 大橋（寒）wear this kinda pants.. LOL!!!
this is the best screenshot i can get of her.. wahaha..

han

Had always wanted to put some photos up few weeks back
but i was really lazy..
some time ago, i took alot of nice photos.. (or wat i think is nice..)
and that was like few years back..
i din have good camera.. so i was kinda sad and stop taking nice pics..
but now.. i started again.. still no good camera though..
but i am satisfied with my handphone.. haha..

shophouses

me and nic went china square.. and these are the dunny’09 we got.. haha..
and nic got the ninja one designed by huck gee.. its a chance of 1/50!!!
which is not in this picture.. but very nice.. i like the wing of the ninja!!

dunnies

some tokidoki zipper pulls.. lol..

tkdk_zipperpulls

the tokidoki pillowcase..

tokidoki

i hung my stitch at one of the fake plants in hoshi.. hehehe..

flower_stitch

NICOLE SO CANDID!!!! wahahaahahahah~~~~~

nicole_munch_munch

 

Working at PI is fun..
i really enjoy working there..
i feel that PI has a total different way of customer service..
like we are all friends..
i like that.. its a bond.. cool bond.. haha..
o.. this box.. was thrown away already.. LOL
cuz bernard is no longer working in PI anymore.. for some reasons that we dunno..
and this was wat he left in the store..
before we threw this away.. we sort of feel sad looking at it.. lol..

bernard's_box

the tokidoki pillow case wrapper is damn nice.. LOL!!
pillow case also nice la.. ><

tkdk_pillowcase

sometimes work place can be too small and too many stuff to place.. LOL..

nicole&the_messy_shop

There’s this customer who is very kind..
just before her birthday, she patroned our store to use her 30% discount voucher..
then she and her bf kept apologizing cuz the exceed 10pm which is our knock off time..
but me and peg really din mind..
and at the end she offered to take a polaroid picture for me and peg..
how nice.. Q_Q

polaroid_me&peg

me and victoria were quite sian one day..
we say the to-fu brochure left on the table.. someone drew on the blank to-fu
and we guess must be jasmine..
that made the 2 of us crazy.. and started using our creative juice on the brochures..
and here comes to-fu town.. WAHAHAHA!!!

tofu_town

we drew out staff too!!
thats Jasmine and Nicole..

tofu_jasmine_nicole

Victoria and me..

tofu_vic_me

Peggy and Darren..

tofu_peg_darren

and this is my favourite to-fu!! drawn by me and vic!!

my_fav

tofu_vic

tofu_me

oo.. met up with my poly clique last week.. quite miss them.. and we hang around iluma..
watched Fame!!
REALLY A NICE MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then we took some pics.. haha..
OO!!
seraphine is coming to work with me for the upcoming PI sales ^^

candid

half candid

me!

LOL

i heart my ODM watch!!

odm

caught in action

sera

kat kat no face see people..

kat

shaun serving NS now.. so he’s a bit.. botak.. hahaha..

shaun_botak

i made some zhong ji san guo pics..
hahaha..
still got some more in the process!!!!!

xiu

xiu_xiang

and this last pic i made it into an ez-link card sticker..
this pic may appear at alot of places..
cuz its the soundtrack cover..
but i photoshoped 2 more people in!!
hahahahahahahahahaha…..

my ez-link card sticker

-The End-
good nite..